Tuesday, August 4, 2009

Cancer Sucks...

Cancer sucks... You hear people say that all the time don't you? When someone close to you has cancer - it REALLY sucks.

My uncle has been diagnosed with liver cancer (in his pancreas too). Incurable. Pretty much non-treatable, other than for pallative purposes. It sucks.

Cancer has taken too many of my family, friends, co-workers, acquaintances, etc. And I am mad! Does it do any good? No probably not, but still I am mad. Mad at the world for not finding a cure for this terrible "robber of life". Mad at God even for allowing such a horrible thing to exist. Hmmm... you might tell me that "Now Jeanne, you shouldn't be mad at God. He knows what is best, he is in control." Well, I know all this, but I am human. And better yet, God knows that. He knows that I am a human and not a perfect creature. I am forgiven that's all. Why hide my anger from someone who knows me inside out and knows what I will say and think before I do it? After all, (and this is one of my favorite quotes): He's a BIG God - he can take it!

So God, I'm mad about this. There, I've said it.

NOW, to move on. (and this next part is really just for me...to remind me. but you can read it if you want...)

God is in control. He is never late, he never makes mistakes, and he has a purpose for every time and season. I do not understand and I may not ever understand while I live on this earth. "For now we see through a glass, darkly; but then face to face: now I know in part; but then shall I know even as also I am known." I think that is my problem. I am a seeker of knowledge, it is built into my curious brain. I want to understand why, what, how, when, etc. And this is just beyond my scope.

Since I cannot understand, I must lean heavy on my saviour. So I will close my little rant with this:

Lam. 3:22-25 — It is of the LORD's mercies that we are not consumed, because his compassions fail not. They are new every morning: great is thy faithfulness. The LORD is my portion, saith my soul; therefore will I hope in him. The LORD is good unto them that wait for him, to the soul that seeketh him.

Eph. 3:20-21 — Now unto him that is able to do exceeding abundantly above all that we ask or think, according to the power that worketh in us, unto him be glory in the church by Christ Jesus throughout all ages, world without end.

John 16:33 — These things I have spoken unto you, that in me ye might have peace. In the world ye shall have tribulation: but be of good cheer; I have overcome the world.